Self-worth

by Sam M. Phillips

God doesn’t want me to fail,

I keep struggling,

I know I move forward,

I am slow but steady,

My feet falter

But my vision doesn’t waver,

I’m locked on,

Full of self-doubt

But sure of my task.

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I know my short-comings

And my strengths,

I expect victory

But I don’t know how to obtain it,

I am an artist,

I am a writer,

I am a musician,

I live,

I express.

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I expect compensation for my work,

But there is no carrot,

Just as there is no stick,

I sit in a void

And I am expected to create,

With nothing to show for it

Except for self-worth.

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I’m sure all this will be read,

I’m sure my music will be heard,

I know my life story will be told,

I’m just being hard on myself,

I expect everything now,

I need help,

I cannot succeed on my own.

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Please God draw people to me,

I need their love

And their support,

I give everything in return,

Just as I’ve given everything

For nothing

For all these long lonely years.

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